Klamath. Really? ...

I have been in Klamath Falls for exactly 2 full months yesterday.

I got a call yesterday from Express Temps that Abby's Pizza has accepted me as an Assistant Manager Trainee.

I was not expecting this. No, I take that back. I kinda WAS expecting it because it was not what I really wanted to do. I am not looking forward to working around food. I am not particularly happy right now about working around people. I am not excited.

How do you react, how do you feel, when you have prayed that God would open the right doors for you, but it was not at all what you were hoping for? I feel numb.

I wanted to get a job in bookkeeping... as I think about getting older, and possibly less mobile. I wanted to work in the back of some office. Something I could take to Sweden if I end up moving there someday. As I know I will never be able to actually retire, and I need to be part of the society that gives and not just takes. Per Ben.

But no one would give me the opportunity to be a bookkeeper.

I am sad because I have lost my gypsy ability. Knowing I wouldn't be "here" forever, and able to move to somewhere else as I wanted. Now I am just stuck, tied down. I hate the feeling. I am sad that Thailand is now a whole lot farther away than just next November. I am sad because this just wasn't my plan.

And Klamath Falls? Really? I have been looking around, trying to figure out where I wanted to settle... but I don't think K-Falls is where I wanted to be. I have hated, HATED, the snow and winter. I was already thinking, "I don't want to be here next year!"

But I start next Tuesday. I am making $1.50 less per hour than the toy shoppe. That is because it's going though Express. If I had been hired directly, I would be making the same, and starting benefits. All of that won't begin until I am hired by the pizza company.

So now, to look at the perks...

I am being trained as an Assistant Manager. This is a good title. It will be excellent experience. I will be working 43 hours a week. Good, overtime :) When I am hired, I will start with benefits and a 401K program. If I put in 5%, they will match 4%. That adds up to over $2k a year. I can put in more if I want. A couple years of that and I might have a nice little nest egg.

I just have to adjust my thinking. This must be where God wants me. I need to accept that, and work through my more negative feelings.

I can make this little house my own now, instead of just considering it a parking place. I will have plenty of time to go through my storage and work on projects.

I am thinking three years, but I have a feeling it will be a whole lot longer.

Lord, help me to have a better attitude about Your will for my life :/ Amen.