When I get off of work, and head toward my van... those moments are when I feel the loneliest.
As I get in the van, the cats are all over me, so I know I have been missed. I ask them how their day went, and what they saw during the day. They are not very good conversationalists, and they NEVER ask me how my day went.
And to be honest, after talking all day to customers in retail, I am not totally sure I would want to go home and have to enter into full conversations with anyone. I do enjoy the quiet my single life affords me.
So rationally, I shouldn't be lonely ever.... but there are times.
Having given this some thought, a few things came to mind. First, being "lonely" is just one of several emotions that are natural and real to feel. Understanding why I might feel lonely is key to being able to work through the emotion.... just like being sad, or angry. Why do I feel this way? Is there a good reason? Or am I just letting it get the best of me?
For me, my kids are far away (on the other side of the world) and I don't get near enough hugs from them. Unless God really throws someone super special in my path, I am not looking for a relationship because what I have experienced and seen, men are definitely more trouble than they are worth. I do have friends, but just not enough of the kind where I can just go over late and hang.
I usually get over that lonely feeling quick enough by settling in and watching a tv show on my phone, or working on a craft project. I am then cozy and content.... until I get off of work the next time.
Second, I feel that in order to keep a lonely feeling at bay so that it does not take over my life, thus making me depresssed.... I believe keeping Purpose and Plans in mind is best.
Purpose - something you need to do. As a mom, I am now in a place where my kids no longer need me like they did. I am a bit lost.
MORE TO COME
